It’s like almost wishes he didn’t make Recovery because that was the album that put him back in the limelight after Relapse, and caused the same pressure that he always has to deal with
Plus, Recovery changed some people’s perception of him. The album showed signs of growth and maturity, and made people think he was starting to get things back together. But since then he’s gotten so pissed off, that he’s ready to throw that all away and go Slim Shady again
Or he might even be saying he wished he passed away that night he almost overdosed so he wouldn’t have to deal with all the ******** going on now